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Im feeling really weird right now.. My grandma was attended to the hospital..and somehow , I really want to go visit her but something tells me I dont want to. Maybe the fact that I still fear death of close ones is holding me back. But its getting me really worried. I tried to hold in my tears when they brought back old memories. I couldnt really bare seeing my grandma lyin on the bed lookin like that.I'm seriously very confused right now..Ahhh to heck with it. I dont think I wanna write anymore bout this .. Anyways o_o;; I almost died three times yday, first was when my friend got into an accident, second was when I was crossin the road when my fren gave me a lift home. I was so sleepy I didnt see the car.Thank god he was calling me >_< ..Thirdly when i was talkin to my friend a truck nearly rammed me x_X .. Talk bout tough luck. No i must not die yet ! x_X I still have to wait for at least 7 more days =D Or at least until Final Fantasy Seventh Heaven is out x) .. I havent talked to my baby dear the whole day. I feel like im dyin x_X .. 7 more days ! Im still counhing down the days.. I miss you =(