Esteem

I truly hate how society of the current time has a very high tendency of generalizing people. Though most have not said it in a form of words (and some have) I know there are large number of people out there who looks at me with their disgusting condescending eyes. Eyes that speak the cruel words that Im never going to be good enough just because I'm a mere highschool graduate.

It'd a lie if I told you that I am not at all affected that "..I am a strong man and how people perceive me will not at all affect the way I feel about myself." Truth be told, it does affect and it has been doing so for a long time. Don't get me wrong, this is not an entry that is angst filled,its more of an expression of disappointment.

..Towards society, or perhaps myself.

To be completely frank, it really gets to me. As a matter of a fact, it even hurts towards an extend where I can't quite seem to get it off my hairless Chinese chest and that it even affects my own self esteem. Being fully aware of the fact that, as of the moment no matter how I slave my ass off to prove that I'm not another non-contributing scum of society people will nevertheless look at me the same way, a good for nothing school dropout.

Trust me, I'd love to be given the privilege to actually further my education. I'd love to lead a lifestyle of a normal teenager. God forbid that I don't use this opportunity to pursue my path into doing something in the areas of political science or psychology.Being in the predicament that Im in, I just don't I think I have the privilege as of the moment. Thinking that perhaps this would only be an issue at work, I comforted myself

"These people don't know better"

The sad truth is, this is happening around people I know outside work as well. Most of us would actually be delighted to meet and old friend. To catch on some of the good old days gone by, expecting a refreshing conversation about some of the brighter things of the past only to be questioned like a criminal towards the mystery of why you're not furthering your education to a tertiary level.

Sometimes I question society's judging standards. Are credentials really as good as medium to judge person as people say they are? It may not be but I guess that's the closest we all have to be able to have someone's area of knowledge to be written in a black and white form in a somewhat accurate manner.

Credentials shouldn't be a standard set to judge a person's education level; education is a state of mind a state of understanding towards things and how they work. Then again, it is not tangible form that enables to evaluate in any manner. I've digressed from the point, I guess ultimately that just the way things are, inevitable and unchangeable

Generalization and categorization of objects based on certain criteria to roughly assume the rest of the aspects of it. Ahh, refreshing is the human's mind so capable yet so much flaws in each and every one of us. Ultimately it would be unfair for me to condemn people who condemn me because I too am guilty of such crimes.

So is the rest of the world.

I guess in a way, it would be illogical for me to feel what I am feeling right now. Helplessly I find myself feeling the exact way I shouldn't. It's odd, Im not making any sense.

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Oh well, another thought for another day

On a brighter note though! I just received a promotion yesterday and I should be celebrating the joy!

Lemme further digress .

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