Untitled # 55

Alot have been going on lately .. Seriously , I can honestly say I dont feel good about it not just to me but to everyone around me .. Well , maybe not everyone but a high percentage of em have been going through alot . Maybe this is a bad year for everyone , not to be supertitious or anything lah but come to think of it the timing for this year is abit off . I mean , did you know that this according to the lunar calendar there will be two Chinese Ghost Festival or was it two months longs? Im not two quite sure . I know lah , its just coincidence but cant you let me rub things in a little? Heh. But , I got to say .. In this past few months I've learnt more in life than I ever did in my 17 years of living . Its funny when you see someone repeat something you've done in the past and when you give advice to that certain person his reaction would be the same as you back in the days. Have any of you exprience that . Maybe , my dad was right about me being ignorant when I was young but hey , Im only a kid with much more to learn but sometimes it only makes you wonder that if you should follow your parents advises blindly even though you have different thoughts about the course of action . It leaves me wondering if Im ignorant or is my parents wrong this time? Such dillemas dont you think ?But thats not the best part , imagine this .. You all full of confidence and you feel on top of the world and when you see people around you think they're ignorant and they dont notice it . Ever wondered , if you yourself are being ignorant without noticing it much like the rest of your peers as well ? Questions like this leaves me wondering with no end much like a looped animation frame.I have to admit ignorance has its fair share in a person self confidence but wait.. Does that mean having low self esteem is a good thing.. but with low self esteem much cannot be achieved..So what does that mean? I wonder..hmm

Maybe Im just thinking too much .. I havent able to sleep really well lately . Just recently I had talk with penny . I have no idea why , but everyone seems to be having extremely emotional talks about life and about themselves lately . Is that a sign? NO it MUST be Paris hilton's fault for her horrible sense of music . Damn you , Paris hilton for making our lifes miserable ! Okay , Im being stupid .. Alright , so anyways the conclusion is everyone has problems in life , Life is sometimes like having diarrhea I mean no matter what shit happens and no matter what you still have to use toilet papers and wipe your ass before maggots start crawling out of it instead of complaining how dirty your ass is . I know its a weird analogy and in case some of you didnt understand that I'll explain in a more direct manner. What I meant was , sometimes in life we feel depressed .. It could be because of some incident or some mistake you make . Regardless , we still have to deal with it and do something that will help improve the situation instead of dwelling in your idiocy and whining every single minute about it .

So the question here is , if something shitty happens what DO we do? Kill paris hilton How do we manifest our so to say , sorrow. Do we drown ourselves with work to numb it.. Or do we dwell in our own pathethicness hoping that someday by some random miracle everything will be solve and your life will be as seen on tv? But , quite frankly Im actually starting to enjoy the obstacles of life . You may think Im stupid or somehow just really really weird but hey come on that's the beauty of life man and out of all this I've opened my eyes to alot of things in life. I dare not say that I've seen everything there to see but hey , I got a good trailer for this movie. I mean , if your life is like a fairytale its too fucking boring dont you think? But if it were to be like a thriller movie or a sadistic lil soap opera you're audience rate would be much higher.

I think the problem with the society nowadays is that they watch to much television . Think about it , almost every single show has a happy ending and alot of it have hot passionate and miraculously amazing love stories that somehow implies that nothing else matters but love and the world revolves around love ... Heck its sometimes to the extreme point where it potrays until as if even the sun have to circle around it . But snap back to reality guys , face the fact those are fiction and its not half as interesting as what that could ever happen in real life .. At least I think so. I used to fuck up my parents for disallowing me to date , but come think of it I was just being as ignorant as the people Im dissing on a daily basis . Such irony aye? but really sometimes we have to make our own mistakes we cant always be sheltered . Pain is the greatest teacher of all . Visualize this , if I suddenly decide to smash my head into the glass and I practically multilate my face and I turn around and tell you " OUCH dude this hurts like a mother fucker"..Of course you'll realize its pain but you dont know how much it hurts so that you wont do something retarded as such . Exprience is everything . Your life have not ended just because you made a mistake instead your life will be altered because of this . Everyday is something new and everyday we will learn something that we never did before.. Life's beautiful dont you think? You can disagree with me but I'll probably push you over the valley for being an idiot.


I think self destructive people deserve to die especially those who's doing it for the sake of attention . You wanna hurt yourself just because you broke up with some random guy/girl by all means if you're a hermit go ahead and fuck your eyeballs out by all means otherwise dont . Why , you'd ask? Cause no matter how big of an idiot you are there's always a group of people who will care for you and be there for you and you wanna let em' worry their asses of just because of a microscopic matter like this? I think you deserve to die.No seriously ,if you think about it all these self destructive people are fucking failures . They cant face problems in life , they think they're the only who has a horrible life and even if your whole family were assinated but some random pink fat ninja its still not as sad as them breaking up with their girlfriend/boyfriend . I mean what kind of mentality is this? The best part is now , that we have concluded that they're failures in life ..but wait there's more they attempt at suicide but their balls are to tiny to do it .. Which makes them failure at both life and death . Really , one of these days I'd really like to see them die.I'd be glad to help



Anyways, Im gonna hit the sacks .. Im fucking tired .