Brokeback Vincent

I think I hurted my back . Ouch .No lah , Im not trying to use the title to tell you Im gay . Its just
that I injured my back while I was carrying a heavy load and slipped off the stairs. I know, ouch. .. Anyways more on that some other time , I intend to blog about something that happened to me this past two days. This two days were perhaps , the most rewarding days I had in my measley 17 years of living . I had a chance to reflect upon my past . I went back to the place where I grew up and had a meal in the restaurant . The same restaurant my grandad used to bring me for some orgasmic char siew paus . To my suprise , I bumped into my grandpdad there. I had a chat with him . After that chat I realized.. He's actually a really wonderful grandad . I used to have alot of prejudice against him for his past but he loved me regardless.

I realized how foolishly I acted last time . I still remember before , I started hating my grandad . I was roughly around 5-6 years old every morning he would greet me with the warmest smile and asked if I wanted to have breakfast with him and we would ride his motorbike to the restaurant and have dim sum , though yeah the shopped is now closed down . I remember how to he used to pamper me when I was a kid , how he used to give me every single damn thing I wanted no matter how spoilt of a brat I was and how he took care of me when I was sick and would scream at my parents for not looking after me well enough. Looking back , I guess he didnt deserve the way I mistreated him when I was a teenager . I nearly shed into my tears when he greeted me with the widest smile ever in the restaurant and asked me about how I was doing . Really , I regret being the fool I was . I take back all the harsh word I've ever said to my grandad . I love my grandad , and I have nothing against expressing that and if you have problem with that go fuck monkeys . The restaurant really brought back alot of memories. I dont understand how was it possible for me to be so blind and as I left I gave him a hug , something that I would have never done before. Here's a tribute to the greatest grandad in the world . I love you . If you're reading this and if you wanna pass any negative judgements I suggest you shut the fuck up.

Later , I met up with my dad to pack stuff from the company he closed down . I've practically grown up with that office its almost as old as I was . Its sad to see it finally end . I remember how I used to go there to quietly study and I would bug my mom for food every single hour , yes I was in fact a sei fei hai last time . I eat alot back then , not that I dont do so now but yeah and I'd be hoggin my dad's pc in his room during break time to go online and surf for porn and chat online . Ahhh , sweet sweet memories of a perfect family I shouldn't have taken it for granted neither should any of you who's reading this right now appreciate what you have not whine about what you dont .

So we're done packing in about an hour , we relaxed and sat at the couch by the counter and my dad sighed and said " There goes 16 years of effort " .. Looking back , when my dad was merely a worker last time , I was kinda ashamed of him which I realize right now is a very foolish thing . I was ashamed of his work before he opened his company . But , I realized that there's nothing to be ashamed about something that brings food on the table and clothes on my body . The only thing I should have been ashamed of was myself. Right now , when I look back I'm damn right proud of him for working from a small fart into someone with regconition in society . Im damn right proud for his peserverence and his efforts to raise a family , a son that took everything for granted . Whoever thats reading this seriously , love your parents the way they love you dont think just because they dont give things to you the way you want them to or do things for you that they dont love you . Dont judge them for any mistakes that they make , they're only human . My dad will be my biggest role model ever .

I guess , I should close this chapter of my life and begin with a new one .. Hell , this sure is one thick book dont you think? This two days , was indeed very rewarding . Spend quality time with your family , because they damn right deserve it . Take my word for it . Ahhh , life's wonderful in so many ways dont you think ?